deadlyeye

My Grandfather has colon cancer (which unfortunately is what took away my Grandmother as well) and he is supposed to have surgery in the next few weeks. Apparently, the doctor said that his chance of survival is slim considering his condition (he has SEVERE lung problems) and age. He has conceded in his fight as he told me. His brother just passed away weeks ago. His wife a year before. He's lost so much and said he's tired of fighting. I can't blame him. I just wish he didn't have to suffer so much. I will miss him so very much when he goes, but, he won't be in pain any longer. I guess that's the only positive thing.

Also, I received an email from my ex-fiance. Apparently she is doing well (which is good) but my heart sunk so deep into my chest. The pangs of heartache were present. I am not in love with her any longer.. but, I always get that feeling. I have to wonder if it will ever stop.