Holy fuckin' shit...I had the craziest night recently. I'm in Florida for the weekend for my step-sister's wedding. I got together with a couple of friends I've know for a long time, one of which I haven't seen in seven years. She's super cool and totally cute and I've had a bit of a crush on her for a while. We went to downtown Orlando for a while before going back to my other friend's house to hang out and watch a movie.
My chick friend was laying very close to me but I didn't think much of it since there were three of us in a queen bed. After a while, she started pulling my arm around her and kissing and lightly biting my hand with the occasional glance my way. Although I knew what was up, it was still a complete surprise that this rawkin' chick who I've always admired and thought was way too cool to even be my friend was all of a sudden all over me.
Since she saw I wasn't making any moves on her (seeing as how I'm married and all...otherwise I would have totally gone for it), she eventually turned to me and asked, "do you feel like you're missing out on life?" (she is very much anti-marriage...or monogomy at all for that matter). It was obvious what she meant so I replied, "No. I love my wife." "Are you sure," she asked. "Yes." She later told me what made the whole thing suck even more is that I'm totally hot.
Now, this whole thing was a complete mind-fuck for me for several reasons. One, after being around her again for only a few hours, my crush on her came back with full force. Two, this chick that I have a thing for and never thought I'd be her type was all over me wanting to jump my bones and telling me how hot I am (This never happens to me. I don't fancy myself hot or even all that attractive. Girls have rarely shown interest in me and there has only been one other occasion in which one came on to me. I'm also the biggest fucking dork you'll ever meet.) Third, although I turned her down, I still feel guilty for even wanting to fuck her and that I was extremely turned on by her advances. Finally, along with feeling very flattered I also feel a little disappointed because she has a boyfriend, has had a fling off and on with my friend, and was now coming on to me. How do I know she doesn't do this with several people? It makes me feel less special or significant being a number or one of many.
I kept going back and forth on whether or not I should tell my wife because I've told her all along how cool my friend is and how I've known her forever and had/have a thing for her, blahblahblah. I didn't want my wife to hate this friend that I hyped up when they've never met. Also, I still consider her a close friend and will continue to keep in contact with her. I was concerned my wife would be angry or suspicious whenever I talked to my friend. I finally decided I should open up about it mostly because I felt like I was hiding something and didn't want to deal with the guilt. Needless to say, my wife isn't happy with my friend but she said that she trusts me and knows I wouldn't be stupid enough to pursue a fling at the expense of my marriage so whe won't be mad with me staying friends.
This whole experience was awesome, ego-boosting, and flattering but also a complete shock and a little depressing. It definitely made this a memorable trip.
My chick friend was laying very close to me but I didn't think much of it since there were three of us in a queen bed. After a while, she started pulling my arm around her and kissing and lightly biting my hand with the occasional glance my way. Although I knew what was up, it was still a complete surprise that this rawkin' chick who I've always admired and thought was way too cool to even be my friend was all of a sudden all over me.
Since she saw I wasn't making any moves on her (seeing as how I'm married and all...otherwise I would have totally gone for it), she eventually turned to me and asked, "do you feel like you're missing out on life?" (she is very much anti-marriage...or monogomy at all for that matter). It was obvious what she meant so I replied, "No. I love my wife." "Are you sure," she asked. "Yes." She later told me what made the whole thing suck even more is that I'm totally hot.
Now, this whole thing was a complete mind-fuck for me for several reasons. One, after being around her again for only a few hours, my crush on her came back with full force. Two, this chick that I have a thing for and never thought I'd be her type was all over me wanting to jump my bones and telling me how hot I am (This never happens to me. I don't fancy myself hot or even all that attractive. Girls have rarely shown interest in me and there has only been one other occasion in which one came on to me. I'm also the biggest fucking dork you'll ever meet.) Third, although I turned her down, I still feel guilty for even wanting to fuck her and that I was extremely turned on by her advances. Finally, along with feeling very flattered I also feel a little disappointed because she has a boyfriend, has had a fling off and on with my friend, and was now coming on to me. How do I know she doesn't do this with several people? It makes me feel less special or significant being a number or one of many.
I kept going back and forth on whether or not I should tell my wife because I've told her all along how cool my friend is and how I've known her forever and had/have a thing for her, blahblahblah. I didn't want my wife to hate this friend that I hyped up when they've never met. Also, I still consider her a close friend and will continue to keep in contact with her. I was concerned my wife would be angry or suspicious whenever I talked to my friend. I finally decided I should open up about it mostly because I felt like I was hiding something and didn't want to deal with the guilt. Needless to say, my wife isn't happy with my friend but she said that she trusts me and knows I wouldn't be stupid enough to pursue a fling at the expense of my marriage so whe won't be mad with me staying friends.
This whole experience was awesome, ego-boosting, and flattering but also a complete shock and a little depressing. It definitely made this a memorable trip.
i'd say your wife's reaction was very mature. most girls would probably want to scratch her eyes out
[Edited on May 28, 2005 9:42AM]