Thursday Jul 02, 2009

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Well...
It's official. I'm single. My boyfriend and I broke up, knowing that it was never fixable. I suppose it was for the best, but my heart is breaking. Its been so long since I've been single...and I'm not sure what to do with myself. I feel empty...and so alone. Will I ever see better days?

Tuesday Jun 30, 2009

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Girls, girls, girls...
So many women, so many fish in the sea,
but how to catch one?

I'm on the prowl, searching for the right woman. Maybe the right woman will help me find myself.
I talk to them, but how can I know if any of them are interested.
I'm not just interested in sex...
I want more.
Doesn't everyone want more?
I just...
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Monday Jun 29, 2009

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Had a birthday party last night. Got a Katy Perry cd, a lunch box from a video game, a hippy outfit, my favorite perfume, some jewlery, some money, a cup for ice cream, and various other things. And I'm still not happy. Although when my birthday came and went, I didn't care. I didn't care for gifts, for a drink, for anything. All I cared...
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Sunday Jun 28, 2009

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Shit...too much shit. Too many problems...too much pain.
This weekend has been the nightmare from hell!
First a swingers party, absolutely a bad idea.
Then an argument, some persuading, lots of confusion and hurt, and a conclusion that I was lesbian.
Then a night without sleep, days without food, and pain that won't go away.
Then calm conversation, decision not to be lesbian, and be...
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mrjune1979:
stay open...it'll b ok...x

Thursday Jun 25, 2009

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Thinking again...never a good sign.
When I go into my head, I rarly come back out. Recently, my latest fascination has been vampires...and women. So mostly, lesbian vampires.
I went to Pride last weekend, and met a girl there. A fantastic girl, kind of have a crush on her. But thats beside the point. There was a vender selling incredibly cheap books, $5 for a...
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cptpyjama:
There needs to be more lesbians.
brittymon:
Thankyou for the add! kiss

Wednesday Jun 24, 2009

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Sitting in the dunkin donuts, drinking coffee, waiting.
Not sure what I'm waiting for, but just waiting, and writing, and discovering new things. Observing and thinking mostly. Its what I usually do. Think, observe, write. There's not much else to do. When I go somewhere with free wi-fi, to entertain myself, the internet seems so limiting. And then when I have no internet, there's nothing...
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tabby:
haha i know how you feel about the job thing, im currently unemployed, yet even though i feel like i really want one and definetely need one, ill miss all my alone time tongue oh well, i have an interview tommarow, that i doubt ill get..but what can ya do tongue

and im confused, are u in a relationship with someone named Josh or are you looking for a relationship with a girl? smile just curious..and noisy. lol. anyways, you live in the same town as one of my friends, Nikki..and not TOO far from me.. by the way, i know how you feel. as much as i like being by myself, when im looking for someone to be around and they arent, it really sucks tongue

Tuesday Jun 23, 2009

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Today is my birthday, I'm 21, and so far I'm not drunk...I'm not sure if thats good or bad. Its not the worst birthday, but its not the best. So far, only two people have called me to say happy birthday, two people facebooked me, and my boyfriend gave me some cool gifts, including a membership to suicidegirls.com. The day is gray, and kind of...
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ironsurfer:
Happy Birthday smile
tabby:
happy late birthdaysmile i hope it got a little better.