deadfishies

Ex is acting like a total dick to me!
Everything seems to be going wrong. He said he was leaving my stuff in trash bags on the lawn. Won't let me in the apartment, and keeps blaming me for stupid shit. He slept with another girl already, and felt the need to tell me he fucked her three times. I see the abusive behaviors, I see that he is hurting and wants to make me hurt, but I can't help but feeling like its all my fault.
These scars, scars that will always haunt me...will live forever.
I don't know how to escape the pain. At least I'm not being a slut.
He called me a user, a hypocrite, and a bitch. I apologized, admitted I was wrong, and took responsibility for my actions. He never once said he was sorry...for leaving the bruises, for backing me into a corner and screaming at me, even after I cried, and begged him to stop. I said I was sorry, told him I loved him, and wished it all away.
Have I shown my true colors....or has he?