Today is the first official day of my single life. I am on my way to self improvement, and doing a little soul searching. I am in a time of self discovery, and today is the day I begin to focus on my priorities. I need to find out who I am and what I want out of life, and what I want in my own life. Not knowing who I am or what I want is incredibly frustrating.
Today I hurt less than I did yesterday, but I'm more numb, and as soon as I stop keeping my hands busy, then everything starts to hurt, and I begin to lose control.
I was supposed to have a date last night...there were plans in motion because of our open relationship, before we broke up. I got blown off, but it doesn't hurt. It all just makes me look at my life in a different way. I'm not sure what is/was meant to be, and I'm not sure of what I want right now.
I know I love women, and thats what I would like have in my life in the future, but as of right now, I'm not sure of anything, and it hurts so much more.
Packing and cleaning today...keeping my hands busy.
Today I hurt less than I did yesterday, but I'm more numb, and as soon as I stop keeping my hands busy, then everything starts to hurt, and I begin to lose control.
I was supposed to have a date last night...there were plans in motion because of our open relationship, before we broke up. I got blown off, but it doesn't hurt. It all just makes me look at my life in a different way. I'm not sure what is/was meant to be, and I'm not sure of what I want right now.
I know I love women, and thats what I would like have in my life in the future, but as of right now, I'm not sure of anything, and it hurts so much more.
Packing and cleaning today...keeping my hands busy.
silvermoon:
Wow, TY... 