deaddarkstar

ick, today sucks....

if this hurricane interferes with me going to see NIN on tuesday i will be VERY pissed off, but, it is something out of my control and i cannot be too upset by it, but i sooooooooooooooooooo will be anyways

...........in my path of self destruction my goal is to shorten my life span as efficiently as possible without actually committing suicide.

nose all blown out...missing

it almost seems like everyday has started to mold together like one long day that never ends....

i learned last night that i really don't have any emotionss left. i had been thinking about it for awhile and i am sure that i had some, somewhere, but i don't.

is that bad?

i'm serious. i really don't care, good or bad....doesn't matter. i think i...
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ok, so i haven't updated in awhile and no one really noticed, but that's ok.

well, september has melted into october and i continue my binge....when your dealer says you should slow down is that a bad sign?

anyways, i am drinking wine and finishing off the last lil bit of my heart*stopping* materials and then i think i will stay up all night, write...
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::yawn::

ok, so the party was broken p at close to 4:30 am....mostly because a majority of the people there were not very bright and decided that they would be idiots....i hate parties, but this one had potential....

oooh this will be fun, this also might be my last posting, i just may not live through tonight *big smile*

party time....with chicks and drugs and booze

hopefully, it will be a killer party (pun intended)

well, hmmm....

i wonder what to say, but i have been trying to be a good boy and update regularly but, sometimes i get so fucked that i can't complete one thought long enough to say anything with meaning.

but i greatly enjoy my philosophy class and i hate the rest of them, but i gotta do what i gotta do....

but me and a...
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another day closer to the end....aren't i a positive ray of sunshine.

Speaking of sunshine....you know my mother was a hpiipe and was REALLY close to naming me sunshine....couldn't you see it...i think the irony would be suicide inspiring.

*sigh* so he i am at 2am with nothing better to do than put off studying and sit here and type absolute nonsense.

Monkeys monkeys monkeys...
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