deadbodyparade

I've been workin' longer hours, watching money streamin' in,
I've been trusting crooks and liars like I don't have any friends...

So, I'm studying for psychology right now. They're making me taking a cunting elective, and "Principles of Human Behaivour" fit my schedule.

Anyway (not anyways; it's not a fucking word), I was reading about introspection. And so now I'm momentarily introspective. I hate when I get distracted from what I'm supposed to be doing because I like a word.

So, I thought to myself: "Am I a "good" person?"

I eventually came to the conclusion that, no, I'm probably not.

Now, I'm by no means a "bad" person. I'm more moral (I'm a better Christian as an Atheist than most Christians) than most people around me, and I don't really do anything that causes catastrophic effects to the world around me.

But...
I live an almost completely selfish lifestyle. I live my life pretty much for me, with no consideration for anyone around me. I don't care the rest of the world disappears, just as long as I'm o.k. If someone asks me for help, then they're asking me to do it for them. I'm not a teacher, and can't explain things at level lower than I understand it.
So pretty much my motto is "Fuck 'em all."

I should work on that. I think I'm supposed to like myself. Plus, I'm always lonely. And you'd think I'd have been in love at least once in 27 years.

If my liver swells up and falls out on the floor, I'll nail to your door,

J.R.


P.S. Wow. This is a depressing post.