dead_squishy

it has occured to me yet again that i think to much on stuff. allways thinking always sucks. Especially when you have as much time to yourself as i do. I work alone most of the time, i spend most nights by myslef away from the others in the camp too. So thinking to much happens , well, to much. Much as i would like to think i do not really care what others think, i do. So currently there is a girl here that is very hard to figure out. the others i can tell we are mates. But with her she is hot cold hot cold hot cold all the damn time. she's nice and a little crazy which means i normally like them. But with her i cannot make up my mind. one day i think she is sexy (which she is) the next i don't care if i never see her again, the next she is a good friend, the next i have no idea who she is. then i think to much. like i am right now. as well as dwelling on that i wonder, what the hell is zombienik_o doing up still, what is gunna happen in Darwin next weekend, and am i bi-polar. yet the order i worry about them in is all back to front. you think checking out the bi-polar thing might be more important than the rest but i've been meaning to do something about it for 6 months..... meh, motivation is the key...