dead_squishy

At this rate I won't have to worry about quitting work. If i keep this up i'll be fired before october. I think i am well beyond depressed now. I'm hearing things that are not there, and sort of hellucentating, well i'm Not seeing things that ARE there. I'm missing the completely obvious. Some shit i left behind this trip were right with all the other gear and I have 0 recolection of it. Fuckin nothing! it's getting scary. The worst part is i don't know it's happening til someone points it out. Plus i have almost 0 short term memory. Am of to see someone about it on Friday. will se what happens. I am serioulsy looking at bailing for a month from here to see if i can sort myself out a bit then come back. will talk to my boss about it tomorrow.

hope you are all doing better than me, lol which shouldn't be to hard really...