I'm not really sure how to put this in writing as whats in my head and my ability to explain never really seem to match up... 
But I have a friend that I have know for many, many years and she is one of many chicks that i am friends with. Hmm that sounds to much like bragging or something. I have about 10 ladies that I am good friends with... and about 20 more tha i hang out with when i get the chance, which is not that often cause they live all over the place.
anyways back to my main point. if that's what i have here...
I been living in a fairly isolated town for nearly a year now. it's one of those places you either find something to do in the town or you travel 2200km to the city. There really are no other options for a weekend here. The town is also the type where if you weren't born here, the locals pretty much don't want to know you unless you are an extravert super hot young woman. And as you may have noticed, I'm not. This town also has massive tourist flow, of which since I live and work here, the tourists think I'm a local and don't want to mix much with me either... After a while this can lead to thinking I have some serious personality issues. Which apparently, thankfully, I don't have as attested by a chick I met on the plane last flight home.
This coupled with the fact I work in remote areas during the week most of the time and that there is just my boss and his wife at work does not lead to the most socially furfilling (can't seem to spell right now) lifestyle. While I have never really needed a lot of social contact, I have needed far more than what I get here. I simply have no one to talk to my own age up here, and phone calls just don't seem to cut it.
So that brings me back to my friend... She is hot. She also lives a very long way away. Now I readily accept that I have some very attractive friends, but only 3 of them would I ever consider going to bed with, and of those 3 she is one and the other 2 I have not know for that long. 1 for only a few months last year before her visa ran out and he had to go home, and she is now back in oz living on the opposite side of the country. Well this friend that I have know for ages really turns me on. She knows it too and we have great fun flirting with each other. For example she sends me msgs about letting me choose where I would like to like choc off her next time we meet and she has no problem expanding it a bit when i tell her where i'd start. We have been doing this for nearly 10 years and we both know it is harmless fun that when i comes down to it, neither of us would follow through because we are friends. But since I've been alone here is has gotten more and more sexual, to the point she has described in quite detailed msgs about what she does and doesn't shave and very nearly volunteered pictures as proof... The problem now is that now I really do want to shag her. We've slept in the same bed before and cuddled all night, but there was nothing sexual about it, just comforting. Now all I can think about it getting her naked and shagging as many times a possible...
This is not normal for me. I really do pride myself on keeping sex out of friendships. She also agrees that us shaggin might not be the best thing to do. But she also says she would shag me if the moment was right. ie she said she needs a couple of drinks to loosen up a couple of inhibitions about out friendship first. Not drunk, just tippsy she says. So last time we caught up I avoided buying her alcohol when we went out. I normally buy her a few. I've noticed that when we are appart she makes me incredibly horny which is very frustrating, then when we catch up it almost all dissapears. She seems to hold two very distinct spots in my brain. One as a super hot, fantasy girl and the other as a close friend I've know for years. So what i've been trying very unsuccessfully to do recently is to expell the fantasy one from my head and just put leave the friend behind. But every time she sends me a msg my mind twists it into something involving her being naked.
This is making me get rather mad at myself. The problem is she has been great for releasing some of the unused sexual energy from being alone all the time. The flirting has been quite usefully and she is fine with it all. But she is the only friend that i have left to do it with, I used to have 3 of 4 friends to flirt with, but have stopped since the entered relationships. So i cannot seem to stop doing it with her like i have in the past.
If this all keeps up I think i will explode or implode or turn inside out or generally do something that leave me in a big gooey mess.
But I have a friend that I have know for many, many years and she is one of many chicks that i am friends with. Hmm that sounds to much like bragging or something. I have about 10 ladies that I am good friends with... and about 20 more tha i hang out with when i get the chance, which is not that often cause they live all over the place.
anyways back to my main point. if that's what i have here...
I been living in a fairly isolated town for nearly a year now. it's one of those places you either find something to do in the town or you travel 2200km to the city. There really are no other options for a weekend here. The town is also the type where if you weren't born here, the locals pretty much don't want to know you unless you are an extravert super hot young woman. And as you may have noticed, I'm not. This town also has massive tourist flow, of which since I live and work here, the tourists think I'm a local and don't want to mix much with me either... After a while this can lead to thinking I have some serious personality issues. Which apparently, thankfully, I don't have as attested by a chick I met on the plane last flight home.
This coupled with the fact I work in remote areas during the week most of the time and that there is just my boss and his wife at work does not lead to the most socially furfilling (can't seem to spell right now) lifestyle. While I have never really needed a lot of social contact, I have needed far more than what I get here. I simply have no one to talk to my own age up here, and phone calls just don't seem to cut it.
So that brings me back to my friend... She is hot. She also lives a very long way away. Now I readily accept that I have some very attractive friends, but only 3 of them would I ever consider going to bed with, and of those 3 she is one and the other 2 I have not know for that long. 1 for only a few months last year before her visa ran out and he had to go home, and she is now back in oz living on the opposite side of the country. Well this friend that I have know for ages really turns me on. She knows it too and we have great fun flirting with each other. For example she sends me msgs about letting me choose where I would like to like choc off her next time we meet and she has no problem expanding it a bit when i tell her where i'd start. We have been doing this for nearly 10 years and we both know it is harmless fun that when i comes down to it, neither of us would follow through because we are friends. But since I've been alone here is has gotten more and more sexual, to the point she has described in quite detailed msgs about what she does and doesn't shave and very nearly volunteered pictures as proof... The problem now is that now I really do want to shag her. We've slept in the same bed before and cuddled all night, but there was nothing sexual about it, just comforting. Now all I can think about it getting her naked and shagging as many times a possible...
This is not normal for me. I really do pride myself on keeping sex out of friendships. She also agrees that us shaggin might not be the best thing to do. But she also says she would shag me if the moment was right. ie she said she needs a couple of drinks to loosen up a couple of inhibitions about out friendship first. Not drunk, just tippsy she says. So last time we caught up I avoided buying her alcohol when we went out. I normally buy her a few. I've noticed that when we are appart she makes me incredibly horny which is very frustrating, then when we catch up it almost all dissapears. She seems to hold two very distinct spots in my brain. One as a super hot, fantasy girl and the other as a close friend I've know for years. So what i've been trying very unsuccessfully to do recently is to expell the fantasy one from my head and just put leave the friend behind. But every time she sends me a msg my mind twists it into something involving her being naked.
This is making me get rather mad at myself. The problem is she has been great for releasing some of the unused sexual energy from being alone all the time. The flirting has been quite usefully and she is fine with it all. But she is the only friend that i have left to do it with, I used to have 3 of 4 friends to flirt with, but have stopped since the entered relationships. So i cannot seem to stop doing it with her like i have in the past.
If this all keeps up I think i will explode or implode or turn inside out or generally do something that leave me in a big gooey mess.
Maybe I should just get over my social phobia