Hmmmm...another fucking update huh?
Let's see......holy shit!--It has been a bit since I last updated.
Last week was quite the adventure. I am getting SO tired of casual encounters with little boys, I mean, really.....I know it's not their fault, it's mine for even stepping into a situation that I know will not turn out the way that I want it to. But still....
It's hard to have faith that I will find someone cool to be with. I've been thinking alot about that, about the person that I would like to be with and I came to one important conclusion: I don't think that I can date someone who doesn't like the same music that I do. I mean, they can like all kinds of music (EXCEPT COUNTRY), but they at least have to vibe with my music too, because music is such a big part of my life that I just couldn't imagine not being able to walk up to them and scream about a new AFI album or break down the fun-ness of Franz Ferdinand...you know? I couldn't handle the fact that someone wouldn't want to come out to dance with me or go to a show and mosh around....I dunno, am I being picky? I admire people in general for their personalities, their sense of direction, that drive that makes people so damn attractive.
So, yeah, I've been thinking about people and how I relate to them and how I always get myself into trouble or into situations that I know are not gonna turn out the way I want them to. But, at least I enjoyed my week's fling with Matt--whatever it ended up meaning to him, and I'm very happy that I didn't have sex with him. I don't think I wanna do that 'casual sex' thing anymore.....not that I did it alot anyways but I'm not wanting that. I just want someone who will want to stick around, take their time to know me, and not run away the second things get intense....I guess I have to make a promise to not run away either then....dammit!--I hate how it works both ways like that.....grr!
Anywhoooooo, that's what's been on my mind as of late, work is good, I still have an impossible crush on one of my gay managers and I still want McG to come out here and stay with me so we can go dancing everywhere....please come out here Gerry....I wuv u.
Allright babies, I love u all. **hugz**
Let's see......holy shit!--It has been a bit since I last updated.
Last week was quite the adventure. I am getting SO tired of casual encounters with little boys, I mean, really.....I know it's not their fault, it's mine for even stepping into a situation that I know will not turn out the way that I want it to. But still....
It's hard to have faith that I will find someone cool to be with. I've been thinking alot about that, about the person that I would like to be with and I came to one important conclusion: I don't think that I can date someone who doesn't like the same music that I do. I mean, they can like all kinds of music (EXCEPT COUNTRY), but they at least have to vibe with my music too, because music is such a big part of my life that I just couldn't imagine not being able to walk up to them and scream about a new AFI album or break down the fun-ness of Franz Ferdinand...you know? I couldn't handle the fact that someone wouldn't want to come out to dance with me or go to a show and mosh around....I dunno, am I being picky? I admire people in general for their personalities, their sense of direction, that drive that makes people so damn attractive.
So, yeah, I've been thinking about people and how I relate to them and how I always get myself into trouble or into situations that I know are not gonna turn out the way I want them to. But, at least I enjoyed my week's fling with Matt--whatever it ended up meaning to him, and I'm very happy that I didn't have sex with him. I don't think I wanna do that 'casual sex' thing anymore.....not that I did it alot anyways but I'm not wanting that. I just want someone who will want to stick around, take their time to know me, and not run away the second things get intense....I guess I have to make a promise to not run away either then....dammit!--I hate how it works both ways like that.....grr!
Anywhoooooo, that's what's been on my mind as of late, work is good, I still have an impossible crush on one of my gay managers and I still want McG to come out here and stay with me so we can go dancing everywhere....please come out here Gerry....I wuv u.
Allright babies, I love u all. **hugz**
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