dcypha

Greetings to everyone. Layin' here bored out of my mind so I thought I'd do an update. Things have been rather shit the past week. I fell of the band wagon in regards to having a break from drugs. Oh well. If at first you fail, try, try, try again.

I had a really bad anxiety attack yesterday and I stormed out of work. I hope I still have a job to go back to.

Don't you ever wish that you were a kid again? I do sometimes. Nothing phases you when you are a kid and it always seems that the world is such a wonderful place. I had such a lonely childhood. When I moved to Australia, I hardly knew anyone and for a good 2-3 years I didn't have any friends. Yet I didn't really have any problems with being alone. I just never felt lonely when I was a kid. 20 years on and I can't seem to shake the feeling of loneliness.

Ever since my girl left me in 2003 i have been feeling really alone. I don't know why. I don't know where I went wrong. The events of my life have been playing over and over in my head for quite some time now. It seems I'm scanning through my life to find out what I did wrong. This is going to be a slow and painful process I think.

Anyways, I am gonna go smoke a spliff and eat me a big bag of lollies. Yay for sugar cravings!