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dcmarsh

Buckhannon, WV

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Friday May 01, 2009

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I don't usually open up like this, but I think I kind of need to on this one.

I've had maddening insomnia lately, and not the good kind where I can actually use the time to get things done. Yesterday I was awake until, no joke, 11:30am. So I basically took a nap before an appointment I had scheduled at 4. Now it's just before 5am, and rather than being remotely tired my brain is spinning around, and I have a shoot scheduled at 10am. I'll probably write and rewrite this blog for a half hour or so.

I'm going to go with the insomnia being a combination of stress (business is s-l-o-w) and...here's the tough one...I quit drinking. "What's the big deal?" you might ask. Here's how that part came about.

Almost 2 weeks ago I went with a DJ friend of mine to a zombie fashion show in Sarasota. Some of you were there. Lotta fun. I went primarily to shoot photos of my friend and the other DJs for them to use, not the actual show. I didn't want to step on anyone's toes, and didn't know who to ask about it all. I didn't want to be that guy that shows up and works someone else's gig. I hate those guys. I digress. I also didn't drive, so I drank my face off. Nothing horribly wrong with that.

The next day I nursed my hangover with some beers. Standard procedure. And I realized that I've been drinking almost daily for the past dozen years or so, less a couple of times that I've been sick. I wasn't one of those people that drank all day, or drank while I worked, I just drank after I got done with my day, and every so often I kept going until I just passed out. So I decided to take a day or two off. Which turned into three or four. On the third or fourth day my stomach started to hurt, and I had a bit of a fever. The creepy-crawly skin kind of fever. I thought I was getting sick or something (this is pre-pandemic) and then it hit me. Alcohol withdrawl. Alcoholism. The this-is-not-a-television-ad kind. Fuck.

So I decided to make my "break" last a bit longer. Probably permanent, but I'm not ready to say that just yet. I've got a good friend that went through the same thing a couple years ago to talk to. I quit smoking two years ago this June, so I can handle this, too. I'm getting my head back together day by day. I've actually been wanting to write this blog all week, but haven't been able to focus enough to do it. I've not been able to focus on anything to completion lately. I literally have over 20 projects started that I need to get done; photoshoots to edit and process, brochures and ads to design, Sieney's set to finish photoshopping, etc. And more work coming. I have the entire weekend to get caught up, though. I will use it wisely. If I have to make a list and tick each item off as I get it done, then I will.

Today, specifically, I've felt like I've just woken up from a really long dream. Refreshed.


In other news, I ordered a ringflash and it'll be here Monday!

Here's a photo from a set I'll be submitting to Zivity once I get everything else caught up:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)




Well, thats how it goes
And Joe I know youre gettin anxious to close
So thanks for the cheer
I hope you didnt mind
My bending your ear...

I'll be having a water.
Cheers.

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king_:
good luck i know you can do it!
May 1, 2009
theanthonyhall:
Yeah, that carrot is the hardest part... and that's coming from a guy who not too long ago raced bikes competitively. But then I quit, and I haven't hardly exercised since early last fall. shit, maybe late summer. I think my main motivation now is that my wife, who used to NEVER exercise, is going nuts on the Wii Fit. I can't let her get more fit than me! biggrin
May 3, 2009

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