I feel broken. I tore my hip flexor up a couple of weeks ago playing ultimate again, and haven't been able to do any exercise. I probably should have quit playing years ago after my second shoulder dislocation, but it's also the only thing I feel like I've ever loved. The only thing I've ever actually wanted to stick with and put in the time to get better at. That said, I can think of a million opportunities to do just that - and i've frittered them all away.
Work is hideously boring and I just can't shake the feeling that I'm wasting my life. I don't even take solace in my dog anymore. I feel like even he thinks I'm pathetic when he looks at me. There's just so little about myself to feel proud of.
I kind of just want to get drunk and lie down on the floor for a while, but I'm not sure how I'd get back up.