davyyy

Music - It sure can make you feel so incredible but can also break you down in a heartbeat. It's definitely a necessary evil but also the opposite. I don't know what I would do without it but I'm sure I could think of something. But while it's here and always will be among us all I embrace it. Funny how music you used to listen to (Let's say about like six years ago) can bring back a year and a half full of memories instantly. And I really do mean instantly and to it's fullest. Taking me back almost second by second, minute to minute, hour by hour, and day to day while I was with her and how I would kill to be able to relive everything all over. Not even caring about all the pain and destruction she put me through because those were all part of the good times as well.

At the time I couldn't handle it all but obviously I can now since it's been six years and both of us have been through so much since. It would just be fun to be able to be in the body I'm in now and the way my mind works and relive those years of my life to see what it'd be like. (If that makes any sense.)

The music I've been listening to used to put me in pain whenever I listened to it because of her. Where you don't feel anything. It was always so hard to listen to until now. Now it's putting a smile on my face even though thinking back how screwed up I was. I am just sitting here, so relaxed and free, and enjoying playing all memories throughout my mind.



But again what I'd do to live through it all again.
I thank her for everything that happened but I really miss her...