davonshire

I suck at waiting, I really, really do. I am waiting to start the new job that I was informed I had been hired for over a month ago. It is a government gig, so that means it moves at the speed of government, and that means that I am sitting around twiddling my thumbs waiing for the job to start. I am trying to finish my very last paper ever, or at least for the forseeable future at any rate but I am not making much headway. This is largely because I really don't give a fuck abotu it anymore. I know I am years away from going back to the PhD after this semester is done, so it is hard to get my head into the frame of mind that it takes to crank out the academics. I am in a much more concrete place with my mindset - a hands-on kind of thing, which does me no good at all when I am trying to think theoretically abotu gender and Judaism. Also knowing that I won't be going backt to the school thing in the fall means I am completely unmotivated to make it happen. At this point in time, I see it as a pointless endeavor. However, a failure to complete this paper will mean an incomplete or a fail on my transcript, which means, that if I were to try and go back to the PhD at any point in time, I will face great difficulty, so I have to suck it up and wrtie the damn thing, which means I have to suck it up and get the damnable research done. I have enough sources on hand to make a paper happen, I just am having trouble focusing on academic writing. Instead of the three books a week I was reading last year for school, I am finding it difficult to get beyond a couple of journal articles a day. I need to get my act in gear however, because eventually, this job is going to start and then it will be even more difficult to make this paper happen. I just wish HR would call so that I can get a start date and then I can focus my energies on getting everything, including this paper... ready

The weather has started to wind down temperature-wise and it feels very much like summer may be ending. I am definitely not ready for that to be happening. I like th 30 degree celcius days with high humidity - and they seem to have finished. It is still warm - but it hasbeen warm and grey for the past few days... apparently sunshine is on the way again though, so I will have to try and get out and enjoy some of it.

Tomorrow I go apartment hunting for my parents, they are moving here in October. Then I have to get sorted out with the house that scepti and I bought before we went backt o NL for our holidays. I am very excited about the new house, and can;t wait to take possession. Only two more months.

So if anyone has a way to teach me patience in my old dog ways, it would be greatly appreciated...