was going through my basement today to get rid of some stuff. hopefully plan to move into a new place very soon. a lot of drug and theft activity going on around my house. found a lot of old stuff I forgot I had. some old toys and old media devices. I found my old blackberry. I haven't used it since 2011! I was in Florida back then and working at Disney World. I also worked at universal studios too. many throwback photos that remind of the good times I had there. Also some photos from a past relationship that didn't work out. I was 25 at the time and she was 22. her name was Yasmine and I thought she was the one. one problem though after dating for almost a year I was ready to settle down eventually but she wasn't. she said she wasn't even close to that point. photos of her are on there. one positive way to look at it was, at that point in time it was exactly what I wanted. but in the end it wasn't meant to be. that was the last serious relationship I was in. there was one girl after that. her name was Jacqueline. that was a case of wrong time and wrong place. I'll be 31 years old on October 1st. haven't had a girlfriend since then. was dating a girl named Erin back in 2009. but it was on an internship at Walt Disney world that ended January of 2010. I live in Ohio and she lived in new York. in the end we lost touch after a while because of the distance. she was great and I enjoyed the time we had together. we were both 23 at the time. didn't realize when I started writing this it was going to turn into a blog about my life history of relationships. but its nice to talk about. but back to my age. haven't had good luck with girls and I don't want to settle just to have a girlfriend. I get lonely sometimes. a lot of my friends are getting married or in long lasting relationships. makes me think that behind in my life. had some matches recently on dating sites but no dates out of them. I get bad anxiety when going to bars or clubs. I have a hard time talking to girls I don't know. sometimes I think that ill just be alone the rest of my life. that is what scares me the most. thanks for listening. you all are awesome! love the SG community.