OK, so.....
That meeting got moved to this coming sunday, wich is why there has been no word from me on it. To be honest, i still dont know what i am going to do. Where are people more into what im into? Where should i go? I think if i knew...i would have already decieded by now. But i'll cross one bridge at a time. So lets see how Sunday goes. But as greatful as i am, i dont want to let being greatful for what i have become a reason to be afriad to try and be and do better, and go better places for me. Im not sure thats going to make sense to everyone. But im sure the gist is fairly clear.
I booked plane tickets to Arizona. So, i'll be in Arizona from July 30th thru August 6th. This is a vacation i need right now haha. Im pretty excited. Now unfortunately i have a neurologist appointment about a week after i get back, so i am a little iffy about if i can afford to fly my dog, Phoenix, out to Arizona with me. If not, im going to worry about her all week. Fuck. I found myself thinking for a moment that this is shit i wouldnt have to worry about, if i dated more non fucking idiots, or the good ones i found didnt move across the fucking country. Oh yeah. Jill will be living in North Carolina as of about 3 weeks from now.
I'll never say so much as a word about it negatively, but i hate that shes going. When the subject comes up, she looks up at me with sorry doe eyes, and keeps just saying "nothings permenent". I think we are both well aware that she is acctually telling this to herself, and not me. But we may not have worked for long anyway, hahaha how often do they these days. In truth, i delt with this a long time ago....still, i wonder how long it will be before i find another girl as self sufficent and driven as her. Then they could watch my dog hahaha. And we go full circle.
So basically ive been at the dog park with Phoenix or drinking jamicain beer all day. Then i sat down here and started rambleing, and now i realize i may have gotten drunk between the first few lines and now. So....im going to finish this post up now, and go watch the fireworks from the deck of my apartment.
-stay safe kids.
That meeting got moved to this coming sunday, wich is why there has been no word from me on it. To be honest, i still dont know what i am going to do. Where are people more into what im into? Where should i go? I think if i knew...i would have already decieded by now. But i'll cross one bridge at a time. So lets see how Sunday goes. But as greatful as i am, i dont want to let being greatful for what i have become a reason to be afriad to try and be and do better, and go better places for me. Im not sure thats going to make sense to everyone. But im sure the gist is fairly clear.
I booked plane tickets to Arizona. So, i'll be in Arizona from July 30th thru August 6th. This is a vacation i need right now haha. Im pretty excited. Now unfortunately i have a neurologist appointment about a week after i get back, so i am a little iffy about if i can afford to fly my dog, Phoenix, out to Arizona with me. If not, im going to worry about her all week. Fuck. I found myself thinking for a moment that this is shit i wouldnt have to worry about, if i dated more non fucking idiots, or the good ones i found didnt move across the fucking country. Oh yeah. Jill will be living in North Carolina as of about 3 weeks from now.
I'll never say so much as a word about it negatively, but i hate that shes going. When the subject comes up, she looks up at me with sorry doe eyes, and keeps just saying "nothings permenent". I think we are both well aware that she is acctually telling this to herself, and not me. But we may not have worked for long anyway, hahaha how often do they these days. In truth, i delt with this a long time ago....still, i wonder how long it will be before i find another girl as self sufficent and driven as her. Then they could watch my dog hahaha. And we go full circle.
So basically ive been at the dog park with Phoenix or drinking jamicain beer all day. Then i sat down here and started rambleing, and now i realize i may have gotten drunk between the first few lines and now. So....im going to finish this post up now, and go watch the fireworks from the deck of my apartment.
-stay safe kids.
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rydell:
kinda just curled it
thanx
thanx
rydell:
so how did your baby girl like the corn on the cob?