davey

I'm so sick of myself tonight. I consciously repeat my mistakes. It's so dumb, and I just... always lose it. And then I always try to cover it up in real life, but publicly lament via the internet. Loser.

I'm not even going to bother explaining myself right now, because it's just so stupid, and I know... everything. I already know how this turns out, and I've always hoped that once I might be lucky, and I already hate that I'm rambling, and all of this is... oh! It's so stupid of me. I'm always just disappointed, and disappointing, and such a whiny brat about it sometimes.

GROW UP!!! Grow up. Why can't I?

I'm dumb.

I want to go home. I miss my dog.

I can't believe it's already December, and I didn't get a single endless invincible November midnight. Shit.

I have some things I'd like to know:
1. Is there really, truly anyone you wish you'd never met? I can't think of a single one.

2. Oh, and what you're doing now-- is that really what you want to do with your life, or are you working towards that, or are you just settling for something you think you can live with, or what?

3. My best friend is single. Might you be interested in dating her? I realize you don't even know anything about her, but you do know a little bit about me. I don't know why I'm asking, because I can't get you the hook-up.

I think I'm going to drive out to the beach and watch the sunrise.