dave82

"Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed"

I'll have to say that some pretty heavy shit has gone down today. I found out that my ex-girlfriend and best friend is engaged to her new boyfriend. She's getting engaged to the guy she hooked up with the day after she left me ... which I may add was only two weeks ago. Not only have I had to deal with her leaving me, but a new boyfriend, and now an engagement.

I tried telling her that I thought it was a bad idea, but she believes that I'm only saying these things out of anger. She's not ready to be married and not ready to be engaged with someone. I've talked with a few of our close friends who think that it is really messaged up for her to be engaged right now. But she's not listening to anyone right now. She's found love and she's not going to let something like what her friends think get in her way of marriage.

So, I've been dealing with that shit all day. Not only to recover from the shock and anger of my ex-girlfriend of 3years getting married, but trying to help her see that this may not be her best move right now.

On another front, the girl who I fucked things up with doesn't seem to want to talk to me. I've sent her a message tonight but she's 'away' and not responding to it. Nothing too amazing, a 'how was tennis today?' message isn't real aggressive. I think she got spooked over something I said or did and is avoiding me now. Ugh. I hate women.