dave82

I got to spend this weekend in Terre Haute for the first time in six months. It is a 9hr drive and very exhausting to do all in one weekend. I apologize to those people I didn't get around to see this weekend. There is only so much time. Spent the majority of my time with Aidan & Anna and Keith & Nicki. I got to play with little Aidan for the first time which was good. Didn't get to see Sam at all even though I stayed at his house because he was working night shifts.

It was a good trip getting to see everyone but I can't help the commentary on what goes on in my head. One of the hardest things about visiting was seeing the two couples. Keith and Nicki have been together for four years and Anna and Sam are married with a child. For me, it's only another reminder of how 'behind' in the family game that I am. They are doing what people are supposed to do at their age. I really don't like to use the term 'jealous' but I don't want to sugar-coat what I feel. I wish I could be in their shoes. I am so far away from having a family myself that I can't even imagine it in my mind. A relationship of four years ... seems impossible for me.

So everything rolls along great this weekend until Saturday night. My brain turns on and I realize that I only have a few more hours before I have to go back to Blacksburg. I really would have loved to setup camp and stay the week but being the workaholic that I am, I couldn't. I guess it will be that way from now on ... see people for a day or two and then months will pass.* Encouraging last line instead of curse word. -Dave