dave82

Here's the scoop of what's going on in David's life:

i) I've started going to church again and trying to regain my faith. In times like these, I can't help but think that Jesus may be the only person who can help me. I'm working on looking to Him for more guidance in my life and maybe it will lead me to find some contentment in life.
ii) Ecco took a turn for the worse a few days ago and is on her deathbed. She has lost a lot of weight, isn't eating and has lost her coordination. Usually when that happens you can give the rat about a day to live but Ecco has stuck it out for 3-4 days. I rack that up to her sleeping a lot and being the fighter that she is. She almost died 15mo ago and battled back to live a long, full life. Now she is just sleeping all day long. When you think out it, it is almost a beautiful thing. They (rats) realize that they are dying, stop eating, and within a day or two they have passed away. I really wish people could accept that in their lives as well. Ecco realizes that she has lived a full life and knows that there is nothing that she can do to prolong it so she prepares for death. Beautifully sad. I have prepared for Ecco to pass on for so long that it probably won't hit me that hard when she does. She's been a wonderfully adorable rat and I'll always have that.

So as you might be able to tell, I'm really not handling my life well right now. I really related to Keanu Reeve's character in 'Sweet November' if anyone saw that. I hated though that he changed for a woman instead of changing for himself. Oh well, fuck it. -Dave