dave82

Have to say that I am unhappy in my life. I sat around tonight and looked for jobs for awhile online. Suckass I'll tell you what. Everyday I am tempted more and more to just do something outside of engineering. I've had this daydream to start an all-ages concert venue in my town but in this dream I have a real-job to pay for the venue. I know that I couldn't make enough money on my own from the club to live off of; but if I just invest time and love into it, I know I can make it work.

Anyways, so the whole job thing is really getting me down. Some of my friends already have jobs and know what they're doing in 6-7months. Some even have several job offers so they painstakingly have to "pick" which one to take. Fuck off. I would be happy with a single job offer. Unfortunately, employers don't like to hire people in the bottom 25% of their university class. Granted, when I get into industry, the college gpa doesn't matter, but it matters now b/c that's about the only real measure of my worth.

Love life fucking sucks right now. Might be hooking up on a date courtesy of a mutual friend of ours. I'm having a hard time being optimistic about it right now though. I'm starting to notice my depression being linked to loneliness a lot and I am worried about that. That is the #1 cause of major depression in my family and I don't want it to take a hold of me.

Oh, if you want to know about my trip to NYC, leave me a note. Don't feel like talking about it right now. -Dave