Monday Jan 30, 2006

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81 days clean today!

i need to get out of texas. i'm meeting all these girls from california. i haven't lived on the west coast yet. i think that will be my next move.

i need to get laid! ooo aaa

i need something. i know only boring people get bored but fuck...

puke

it's no wonder so many people become sex addicts after quitting drugs.

bok

fuck!

miao!!

Sunday Jan 15, 2006

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last night:

we found what we think may be a "bug" on a chair in our NA group. we might just be paranoid, i don't know.

i went to Billy Bobs Texas "The Worlds Largest Honky Tonk". good times. lots of hot cowgirls in super tight jeans, getting drunk. i went with my sponsor and a good friend from na. my sponsor likes to go...
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Tuesday Jan 10, 2006

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i was wondering around downtown the other night. i thought of our first date. i didn't know we were on a date. i thought we were just hanging out. we had been friends for awhile. you said you could never date me while i was still drinking. it (my drinking) terrified you, and i could not be around your kid. but i had not drunk...
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Monday Jan 09, 2006

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60 days clean.
nice! puke

Monday Jan 02, 2006

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last night i watched the first sunset over texas for the first time this year. the temputure was in the high 70s. it was hazy. i thought about goals i would like to achive, a promise i made to myself, and places i wanted to travel this year.

i get so lost in my day to day shit that i lose sight of the big...
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dave42:
60 days clean today.
nice!

Friday Dec 30, 2005

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old 97s tonight! kick ass! i just thought i'd write something. anyway, kick ass!
dave42:
"half the way there just wouldn't be fair..."


friday night: hustled to dallas after work. we didn't have tickets, but i've gotten into sold out shows before. it is a little bit harder with two people. i guess something was on our side, we scored two tickets for the price of one. fuck yeah! nothing beats the old 97s when you are a little weary and lonely. they but on a sloppy show, but it's not always about perfection. i need emotion: a little anger, a touch of heartache, some desperation, and alot " fuck that girl". they delivered. i still suffer from social anxiety, anxiety in general, and the large, diverse crowd didn't help. but we weren't there for a group hug.

"that girl" was there. i ran into her on the way to the bathroom. it's funny and not funny at all how you can love someone and be... i don't even know thw right word. she is not the same person i was in love with. and she was throwing all sorts of stupid words and sentences around the club. i avoided her on the way back.

of course it is all good. and totally typical of and old 97s show. what a great band.

a few years ago i typed a letter before a show for rhett. i asked him not to play "question". i requested he play "wave of mutilation" instead. rhett read the note, laughed, and said that he i would have to come to a solo show to hear "wave" because of some record company shit. but, he didn't play "question"! since he plays this for every fucking encore, it was a big deal. what a great guy. i'm sure he understood.

ficking great band. smokin' live.