Before I begin, this is not a rant about being lonely and all that...honestly the least of my concerns right now. But I need to vent, and this has become my place to do it. So here it goes. The past couple days have been awful. But let's start on a good note. I had an interview on Wednesday, which I am really excited about. The job isn't exciting but the raise is and literally will be life changing if I get it. And I think I did well on the interview so that was a good part of the week. That, and my roommate/cousin is going for the week because he needs to watch his parents' pets, so I finally get some privacy! Awesome. But then, the shit hits the fan.
First, let me start by quickly describing my living situation...I live with my grandmother. I voluntarily left my apartment years ago to come here and help with my grandfather. He passed so, now I watch over her. But it's nice, I have a floor to myself, bedroom, two bathrooms, living room, spare room, etc. This year, my cousin somehow snuck his way into living here as well, on my floor. So I have an undesired roommate. But I can't really say anything about, so it's tough, I just grin a bear it.
I've been saving to move out, but my car is going on me, so I was going to get a new car first. I can't afford both where I am working right now. Anyway, apparently my uncle has had a tough time since my grandfather passed, but it has been getting real bad lately and he has been have some drinking problems. We tried to get him in an outpatient but they said he wasn't bad enough or something stupid. So anyway, he got in a fight the other day with his neighbor, and got arrested. So now, it sounds like him and his (maybe) daughter are possibly moving here too. There is no way I'm dealing with that. So now I am saying screw the car, it'll last awhile more, I need to move. And if I get that job, I'll be golden, so hopefully I'm jumping the gun and all will be fine, but for now I'm in panic mode. Shit will go down if anyone else lives here...I know my fam. And there is even more drama behind this, but I don't even want to get into it.
And now, we get slammed with snow. On the plus side, my job lets me work from home. The negative of that is I don't have the usual 45 minute drive to work. Which is good given the weather but that means I don't get a break. So the past two days I've gone directly from work to shoveling and it's been exhausting. And I've had to work late to make up for the time I took off for the interview. So today, I was up at shoveling until work, worked 9.5 hrs (yes I did allow myself SG time throughout the day), then went back out to shovel because the plow we hire sucks. This is my first "break" I've had in almost 14hrs. I'm beat. And tonight I'm supposed to go to my friend's engagement party, so when I'm out shoveling I go to warm up the car...doesn't start. Ok, so I tell myself to give it some more time and try again. Still nothing. So now I'm stranded. I asked one of my friends to pick me up on his way, but he is home sick with his gf. So missing out on my one chance to go out...even though I would have been a single guy at an engagement party on Valentine's Day. Doesn't exactly sound like an amazing time lol.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not taking what I have granted. I know people have it way worse than I do. I'm just saying it's been a shit week and I'm tired of keeping it to myself. I'm thankful everyday for living here, and for having a job at all, etc. Thanks for letting me vent. An intense few days...some drinks are absolutely in order tonight. And to everyone out there, single or taken, celebrating or not, I hope you all have an amazing night. Cheers!