Saturday Jun 13, 2009

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I miss him. I know we've gone through a ton of drama, but I miss the_cowboy. My recent relationship experiences have driven home how valuable it is to have someone love you back. Yes, he has major flaws, and can act like a total dick, but when you get right down to it, he loves me, and always will. The other two men I've been involved with in the recent past have not really loved me back, and it makes me terribly sad to admit that. I know I shouldn't take him back, but it feels inevitable that we'll be together eventually. Believe me, this is not the relationship I aspire to. It just happens to be the one that works most often in my life. My mom says I need "Door number 3", but I don't have any idea how to find new partners. I've been coupled almost consistently since I was 15. I'd look, but I have no idea how, or what to say when I'm interested. In the meantime, I seem to have a patchwork of relationships with various people filling the needs in my life. I just wish I could find all the things I need in one man.



Relationship shopping list:
- Sense of humor. I make fun of everything, even my health scares. It's the only way I can handle the heavy stuff.
- Big & strong. (Seriously, I am less than evolved: I can't date the scrawny dudes. I need someone who can chuck me over a shoulder & haul me off to bed).
- Have a life (I have my own life, and I don't need someone in my face every minute of every day. We should be close, but not co-dependent. I don't want to be your life).
- Be smart. I need you to challenge me, to argue when I'm wrong, and to make me think.
- Be caring I know I'm kind of a badass, and I have an attitude, but I need to be taken care of, too. I don't need you to pay for stuff, or to baby me, but I need a partner to shore me up when things get rough.

In exchange, I will: feed you, give backrubs, be indignant on your behalf when necessary, make you laugh a lot, smile most of the time, give you space to be with the boys, respect you, and have lots of sex.



If you know anyone who fits these descriptors and wants what I have to offer, help a sister out, k?

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boxofficepoison:
If you've been coupled ever since you were 15 try being single for a while. The relationship you enter after proving to yourself you can be happy alone is always a lot more rewarding than the relationship you feel you need to be in.

Also, okcupid is definitely the suck. Plus I've been single for almost two years now, so take my advice with a grain of salt.
marge:

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Don't tell anyone this, but sometimes I feel that way about my ex. HOWEVER, I usually feel that way when I am at my utmost loneliest, or when I am a long time between love interests. It is the fall back and the memories of the good times, combining with that little bit of emptiness. It is a bad cocktail. Like a Surfer on Acid, or Liquid Cocaine, or something. As an extension of all this, word up on the previous response and try and stay single for a while. I was trying my damnedest when something awesome fell into my lap. To the point that I feel like I still feel like I needed a little more time to enjoy who I was without a someone.




My friend Chris kind of fits that description. Too bad he is dating a high-maintenance, overly made-up slut who has already cheated on him and dicked him over a lot. Oh well, he has an annoying voice (I love him to death, but it is true!) and that probably would have caused you to bail anyway.

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