My thoughts are jumbled today. What was once a classroom of asian school children sitting taut and erect has become a bunch of autistic american kids with addsd and an ocd.
I'm neither happy nor sad, fat nor thin, sane nor insane, good nor evil, intelligent nor feebleminded. I am the epitome of mediocrity. I hate myself for it.
I need some direction in my life. How have I managed to survive this long? What do I have to show for my existence? In even the slightest way, how have I benefited humanity?
That's not true. I have direction. I just lack the will power and determiniation to follow my desires. Not to mention that I am addicted to something far more dangerous than drugs. My fucking computer. I hate it and it hates me. One day soon it will be sitting in an old damp cardboard box in the back of a storage warehouse while I sit on a plane to san diego. Yes. Yes indeed. What a glorious day it will be when I can say "I am strong. I am proud. I am a United States Marine and I have no fucking computer." Then again, instead of a computer I'll have a conflict I do not want to be involved in.
I'm neither happy nor sad, fat nor thin, sane nor insane, good nor evil, intelligent nor feebleminded. I am the epitome of mediocrity. I hate myself for it.
I need some direction in my life. How have I managed to survive this long? What do I have to show for my existence? In even the slightest way, how have I benefited humanity?
That's not true. I have direction. I just lack the will power and determiniation to follow my desires. Not to mention that I am addicted to something far more dangerous than drugs. My fucking computer. I hate it and it hates me. One day soon it will be sitting in an old damp cardboard box in the back of a storage warehouse while I sit on a plane to san diego. Yes. Yes indeed. What a glorious day it will be when I can say "I am strong. I am proud. I am a United States Marine and I have no fucking computer." Then again, instead of a computer I'll have a conflict I do not want to be involved in.
Whatever reason he may have for suddenly keeping his distance, I sincerely hope he gets over it in a hurry. I hope he remembers why he persued you and started dating you in the first place. I hope he shows up on your doorstep at 3am in the freezing cold with tears in his eyes saying he is sorry.
me too.
me too.