Well, no one reads this anyway...but I guess I feel like typing.
Ive been depressed for quite awhile now. I don't do anything much but play games, watch DVDs with my new HDTV and hang out with my rat. I recently had 4 nights off work (which I do every other week) and only left the apt to get food/snacks 2 times. So I was here in my apt for pretty much 4 days straight. Yeah, its obvious I'm depressed.
I'm pretty anti-social. I'm not into crowds or bars and all that stuff. I have no friends. No gf, I never have a gf. "sigh" I guess thats a huge part of my depression. I'm getting older, ill be 32 in June, and Ive been alone most all of my life. Granted, I like being alone alot, but it would be nice to have a female companion. Everyone has all this "luck" and can find a mate like its a candy bar at 7/11 and is easy as pie....but not me. Nope. I get zero. I don't understand how people do it so easy. How they find people so easy. I just flat out don't get it. Its alien to me.
Thats part of why I joined SG. I thought maybe I could meet some people in my area into things I am into. But, alas, the SGPDX group wont let me join, so whatever. Its always something. They don't let people join unless they meet them, and nothing they put together is of interest to me, and others are on nights I work. I guess people AREN'T interested in things I am here either. So, that shoots that down. As usual. But, at least I get to look at beautiful women, since I get nothing. Hell, even the people in the Portland groups on myspace are pricks. All they do is cut on everyone and act like 2yr olds. I guess I live in a cesspool of immature rejects and politically correctness.
What a waste of words and time
Darth Vengeant
Ive been depressed for quite awhile now. I don't do anything much but play games, watch DVDs with my new HDTV and hang out with my rat. I recently had 4 nights off work (which I do every other week) and only left the apt to get food/snacks 2 times. So I was here in my apt for pretty much 4 days straight. Yeah, its obvious I'm depressed.
I'm pretty anti-social. I'm not into crowds or bars and all that stuff. I have no friends. No gf, I never have a gf. "sigh" I guess thats a huge part of my depression. I'm getting older, ill be 32 in June, and Ive been alone most all of my life. Granted, I like being alone alot, but it would be nice to have a female companion. Everyone has all this "luck" and can find a mate like its a candy bar at 7/11 and is easy as pie....but not me. Nope. I get zero. I don't understand how people do it so easy. How they find people so easy. I just flat out don't get it. Its alien to me.
Thats part of why I joined SG. I thought maybe I could meet some people in my area into things I am into. But, alas, the SGPDX group wont let me join, so whatever. Its always something. They don't let people join unless they meet them, and nothing they put together is of interest to me, and others are on nights I work. I guess people AREN'T interested in things I am here either. So, that shoots that down. As usual. But, at least I get to look at beautiful women, since I get nothing. Hell, even the people in the Portland groups on myspace are pricks. All they do is cut on everyone and act like 2yr olds. I guess I live in a cesspool of immature rejects and politically correctness.
What a waste of words and time
Darth Vengeant
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my advice is to try not to worry about (easier said than done, I know). girls seem to just fall in your lap, you don't hunt them down (well the good ones aren't sitting in bars waiting to be picked up) and most of the girls don't real like guys that give off a desparate vibe.
the SGNC group ignores me too... but hey people who don't think there aren't stuck up snotty people in the "alternative scene" aren't really part of it. besides you you get too fed up with SG I'm beta testing for a start up site and my best friend is one of the three partners. you seem pretty cool (star wars geeks need to stick together) and if you're interested I can try to see if I can get you added too if you're interested. and no honestly I have no money and no time invested in this so this isn't a sales pitch. you won't have to pay as a beta. they're going for more alternative women than SGs current influx of new girls. if you're interested let me know and I'll send you their myspace link.
anyhow, take care man, life has a funny way of working out sometimes. I hope it does for you.
I dont set around worrying about it. I dont ever hunt girls down, hell I never even talk to anyone really. I never give off a desperate vibe either, being as I dont meet or talk to anyone. lol. I was just writing some feelings down in the post, its not something I ramble all day about or annoy the world with.
yes, id be interested in your beta test site. send me alink.
thanx