I don't mean to seem so negative all the time. Truth is I'm actually a very positive person in real life. I feel a real and deep love for humanity because we are amazing creatures.
I just let my negativity go to release it from my body and I choose to do it here because no one that knows me would think to look here, behind the pay wall, to pick my brain.
It's my process and I need it to get by. Sometimes seeing your negativity in words on a page is far more healing than anything else I've found thus far. Though I am an addict, chemicals don't solve any of my issues. It's only through the black and white art of written language that I ultimately find my solace.
As an ending note I will share something very positive in my life, a new YouTube channel I'm a part of. It's just me and two friends making videos we enjoy right now but I secretly hope it will become something more.
Thus far my favorite series to record is Armchair Academic and I have trouble waiting to do the next episode. It's, hopefully, a bit funny and also educational.
I invite anyone reading this to check it out, you just might learn something. :)