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darquan223

Where I live? MN. Where I was born? Oxford, England

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Poetry in motion

Jan 29, 2016
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Today I had a bad day.

I've come to a rut in my existence that I can't seem to break out of. The sky is falling around me and though I know I should feel sad my endearment for the world I exist in keeps me wondering why. I am an active participant in the greatest mystery anyone could ever know yet I'm bored.

Despite that it's come to my attention that my body may be failing me.

I've had a pain in my side for quite some time now and after a long overdue CT scan the doctors found some thickening in the wall of an intestine. I'm going in for a colonoscopy in a few days which will give me a definite answer to the pains that have ailed me.

I feel like I'm in a state of limbo.

With the possibility that black robes could be ebbing at my waking state I now wonder...

How did I ever allow myself to become so complacent?

baalseraph:
Keeping my fingers crossed that they'll find nothing serious during the colonoscopy. And don't we all tend to become somewhat complacent from time to time? I do, and whenever it happens I need someone to kick my butt to get back on track.
Feb 1, 2016
darquan223:
Thanks for the concern Baal. I think it's human nature to just get too comfortable where we forget what we are taking for granted. It shouldn't be anything too serious being that I don't have any other symptoms besides the pain. They told me it's likely colitis or something like that. Still enough to scare me though.
Feb 1, 2016

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