I've posted some rather bleak posts lately and after reading them I've realized that they don't represent who I am. I'm a pretty positive person actually.
I have found that the way I deal with negative emotions isn't completely unique though. Many seem to let their negative emotions consume them for an entire lifetime but I limit them to one horrible night.
Basically if something is bothering me enough I let it loose for one night, devil may care, then deal with the consequences.
My torment is directed inwards though so I punish myself but I always vow to rebound the next day.
The point of this is that even though I get insanely fucked up on drugs and alcohol to deal with my own demons people genuinely like me and I live a fulfilling life. People want me around and I constantly remind myself of that in dark times. People take time to get to know me and also accept my customs as their own even though they are unconventional.
It is for that reason alone that I love humanity. Even in our darkest times hope springs eternal.