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Tonight my ex contacted me. I had texted her a few days ago in response to an open question we had between us: can we be friends? I noted the amount of devastation our ability to function as a couple had taken on me and told her what I was currently doing with myself as a sort of farewell consolation. Much to my surprise she...
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baalseraph:
Seems like a pretty fucked up situation, if I may say so. For me, it sounds like she didn't ever really see you as her partner, but as a functional cohabitant and now that you are gone she wants another one and is hoping to win you back more easily than finding a new one. But that's only my two cents and not necessarily the answer to everything...
darquan223:
you're right in every way about her
Most would like to claim they woke from some coma, nap, sleep, or whatever when they first realized zombies were real. It's easier for the human psyche to accept that we went to sleep when the world existed in a certain state and just simply woke up to an altered state rather than acknowledge the events preceding our transition. I, however, am unforeseeablely altered by...
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The world is a maze of endless mirrors
Reflecting the cruel nature of existence
Manufacturing doubt without reason
Deitiefying logic without cause
Spoiler:
To break the chains of your own eternity
Cast the first stone!
peppers_:
written something intense, but pretty good
In the past few months my world view has been completely destroyed but in its place is a much more positive and simple facsimile. Originally it was self serving but now I find that it is actually true.
How can this be possible?
It is because we make it reality on an individual basis. We can't hope for something and through inaction expect it to...
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I'm not normally at a loss for what to do but I recognize when I am. Usually I just do what I think is right but with the internet at my disposal I figure why not use it as a sounding board. If nothing else just reading your thoughts on a screen (or seeing yourself exhibit ideas outside yourself) gives a person unbelievable perspective. Given...
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baalseraph:
For me this makes perfect sense. I've been in a similar situation, only that I was in a relationship when the girl came back after a few years without contact, also being freshly divorced. It can be very hard to deal with situations like that, and honestly said I was unable to cope with the situation that well. It ended with me breaking the contact for I had no intend to put my realtionship at risk. I'm not sure till today if this was the right way to deal with it...
Sometimes one little action can become something much bigger such as a simple apology leading to a reconciliation. Now I wonder why I carried the weight of all that guilt for so long when I could have set it down at any time. I've heard it said that an apology is a one way process and I've adopted that view but when someone reciprocates your...
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I'm thinking now in a very abstract way. As I've said before reality is a fickle bitch but I've had some crazy revelations over the past couple of days. It's like I've entered into an intellectual fugue where I can still function on a day to day basis (I'm actually kicking major ass at work and expect a huge promotion soon) but my world view...
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Despite the efforts of political dinosaurs like Mark Dayton the great state I live in known as Minnesota legalized medical marijuana yesterday and I couldn't be happier. Though the bill itself drastically limits the means in which marijuana can be used (no smoking leaves at all QQ ) I believe this is but a stepping stone to complete decriminalization of the plant. The best part...
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darquan223:
oh yeah I almost forgot to mention that he also played a vital role in creating the bill to allow same sex couple the privilege of marriage.
Despite the efforts of political dinosaurs like Mark Dayton the great state I live in known as Minnesota legalized medical marijuana yesterday and I couldn't be happier. Though the bill itself drastically limits the means in which marijuana can be used (no smoking leaves at all QQ ) I believe this is but a stepping stone to complete decriminalization of the plant. The best part...
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In the last day I've tried hard to examine myself pretty hard. Do I exist as a joke to all those around me? Do people actually hold genuine affection for me as I do for them? I could ask questions all day about motives and emotions and still not come up with an answer that satisfies me. So what is the solution to this? I've...
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I guess the feeling I've had lately is extreme loneliness. I'm not like most people and it's an easy thing to see. I used to think I was socially awkward but I found relating to people isn't too hard once I overcame that mental burden. Still though I don't feel like I fit into most social groups. People tend to gravitate towards me even but...
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From a scientific perspective reality is a fickle bitch that is constantly in flux. I think my biggest existential crisis was when I realized that humans are infinite beings with the power to sculpt reality to their liking. We literally have the power to make the world into whatever we want it to be and rather than turn reality into a place where we can...
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