I'm happy to see I gained a few new followers yet again. I've never blogged so honestly before or shared so many personal thoughts in such a public space. I feel like most people see me as a mystery and I admit sometimes I even wonder why I am the way I am. Reading back through my ramblings and has helped me answer far more...
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It's strange to look back into my early years and see how far the medium of gaming has come. I remember when I was a tween playing video games wasn't considered cool. Jocks reigned supreme in school and declared gaming was for nerds, parents just echoed the mantra of the media saying video games just rotted your brain. Now we exist in a society where...
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darquan223:
@baalseraph It's good to hear from you again. It's awesome that video games are slowly bridging the gap between reality and fantasy. Part of the problem with life is that we don't have a restart button and I believe that for certain people video games give us the outlet we need to resolve our quantum curiosity about life, morality, and other things.
baalseraph:
You are right! I remember last years winter season when I was on a trip with some of my friends. One of the guys is a software developer and brought his Occolus Rift Developers Kit. It was fantastic! Although it's kind of a prototype, weighs around a ton and doesn't support HD (only XVGA) the feeling of sitting in a rollercoaster when wearing this thing was absolutely staggering! :) I agree with you that certain people use video games as an escapism or coping mechanism. And of course it's enticing to use games as an outlet, especially when it comes to moral. I would most probably never ever kill another person, become some kind of an infamous villain who is feared all around the country (or even planet or galaxy!) or even race through the inner city at 120 mph. But I can do all this in these fantastic virtual worlds without having to fear the consequences or even hurting anybody. :)
Sometimes when I'm at my weakest I remember there is always a world out there where I can seek shelter.
Lately I've been just kicking around in a meager but honest existence. I've been here before at pivotal moments in my life, almost as if this place is some sort of sanctuary for me to recoup my losses. Each time I come here older, wiser,...
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Lately reality has seemed like a fog. People around speak in muffled tones that I barely recognize and it's only through years of practice that I can fool (most) everyone into thinking I'm still part of this world. I guess I've been wondering where my anchor point it. I have my parents still and I don't take that for granted but beyond that I have...
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iggy:
You should have kids because you're a thinker and a questioner of the status quo. We need more smart people like you on this Earth to combat idiocy.
I feel like I've been away forever. I was happily surprised to see I have new followers though. You provide me the motivation I need to actively throw my problems to the world so that I can gain enough perspective to solve them. Not long ago I went through a rather traumatic breakup and the people I work with really came through for me in...
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In these sorts of times I tend to ask myself what pushes me forward, how can I continue to press on when I have lost the things that keep me waking up? Well that answer to that is simple now. It is love that drives me. A force beyond my comprehension that I can see is real yet just as imperfect as my attempts to...
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iggy:
I always enjoy reading your blogs. This one was no exception. And yes, we should often re-examine our notion of the word love because as we grow and change the meaning of love does so as well.
The drama of life has kept me from my computer and I've missed the catharsis these blogs provide me. Though I think that every time I break the connection for a bit to observe I come back with new demons to expel.
Lately I've seen the chaos of existence and how everything succumbs to it. More miraculously I've also seen rebirth from that destruction and...
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For the working class hero the passage of time and all it's deeds is a weight no one should bear.
Sometimes I worry I've gone beyond the edges of sanity. I struggle for an anchor beyond my bloodline, knowing I am fully capable of living on my own but I don't feel like my daily routines are worth having with no one to share
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iggy:
I've been saying things similar to this for a long time now.
There are cloudy times when I cry out
to the void
Demanding unreasonable reason
While witnessing a logical miracle
Intricately veiled beyond comprehension
I'm really thankful that in addition to my time spent in the physical world I can have my space here to make sense of it all.
In the last few days I've gotten through the end of a rough week at work, seen the drunkest wedding party I've ever encountered, gotten new perspective on people I'd written off, and also taken time to marvel at...
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Slowly but surely I can feel the familiar mechanisms of my world grinding to life again. Every time an attempt at cohabitation fails I find myself in this exact same spot, doing the same things to maintain my sanity. I try to learn from those experiences though as I steel myself for the next attempt at finding a woman. Each subsequent time seems to diminish
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If I could say something to the entirety of humanity I would say this.
"If you are currently making decisions based on dividing people and/or pointing our their differences to each other, we don't need your input.
If all you want at the end of the day is more money or a bigger bottom line, you don't deserve to be in charge of anything.
If...
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iggy:
Hallelujah!
baalseraph:
Wow....couldn't have said it any better. These are quite wise words!