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Sunday Nov 04, 2007

Nov 4, 2007
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Well it's here.

My season depression is in full swing. The nightmares have started. My self image has become lower. I feel like I'm carrying an extra weight all around me, like my skin has gotten heavier. I've started to dread the day each morning. I don't want to leave the house. And I'm questioning and doubting everything.

I recognize what going on and why. That makes it a little easier and brings me down all at once. I still haven't gotten over things I thought I did. I'm still that unhappy, weak, unimportant child abused child, at the age of 34. Great!

I'm really trying to distact myself and keep life interesting. But my current financial status limits those obtions. I'm also working on a number of writting projects. Hopefully I can channel these negative feelings into something productive.

If your interesting in reading one click HERE. It really needs some further editing but I'm giving myself deadlines on this particular story so it went up though it still needs some polishing.

If you like it, or not, I'd love to know what you think.

Hope things are better with all of you.
Laterz!
sweetbutch:


my friend

maybe you should move someplace warm and sunny


it won't change all the shit that has happened

but it couldn't hurt


i'll be back after i had a chance to read your writing

now i got some kid wrangling to do


be well

Nov 4, 2007
sweetbutch:


my profile is chock full of lies

for some reason i chose the day of the kennedy assasination for my birthday


i in fact turn 45 tomorrow, november 8

Nov 7, 2007

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