darqkloud

Gods!
I need a career change!

Came to the conclusion that things with my new lady friend won't progress in to anything other than friends with benefits. In a way that's cool because there's no pressure, just two people enjoying each others company. But I would rather have a more meaningful relationship. I do like her, a lot, but I don't think she wants to juggle school, work and a relationship. Can't say I blame her.

I had to shoot down the advances of a co-worker today. Don't really feel bad about it. She only likes me because she's into black men and I'm the only one in the company. Plus she told other people that I would be hers in time. Why didn't she think that that kind of talk wouldn't get back to me?
Now works going to be all awkard. This is the second person I had to turn down in the 8 months I've been there. These women know nothing about me other than I'm black and they only like black men and I'm the only one around. Some guys would take advantage of the situation, but it just makes me feel like shit!


I think I'm thinking too much.
I do that sometimes.