darlinginvalid

One of the ten thousand things I would like to tell [her] but cant (cause it would probably just fuck things up...):

I lied. I didnt really stay sober at the last party just so no one would have to
drunk-sit me.
It was so I could kiss you, Its all I wanted to do all night long, all day long, all week long since the last time I had seen you...and i didnt want to be sloshed when I did it. and when I found out I wasnt the first or only person you had kissed that night, I was jealous, I know Im in no position to be, but I was, because I like you more than I should...

sigh.