darling69

ALONG TIME AGO ABOUT 6TH MAYBE 5TH GRADE I WAS ANOREXIC .......................I DUNNO WHAT HAPPPENED MEDS OR STRESS OR THE STRUGGLE TO KEEP MY WEIGHT UNDER CONTROL AFTER LOOSING SO MUCH MAINTAINING IS SO .......................FUCKEN HARD.

SO I GUESS I BEEN PASSING IT OFF AS NOTHING BUT THIS EVENING REALIXZED ITS AGAIN A PROBLEMB .

I SEE MY PSYCHOLIGIST TOMARROW AND THIS WILL BE THE TOPIC OF OUR DISCUSSION ...............IM VERY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS AND I FEEL EMBARRESMENT .

AS WOMAN ON HERE THIS SITE THISWORLD THE SOCIETY DOES THIS AFFECT YOU ARE YOU FEELING THIS PRESSURE?

AM I HARD ON MYSELF?

SOCIETY DOES MAKE IT MORE ACCEPTABLE TO BE THIN /SKINNY IM PRETTY AVERAGE A SIZE 8 AND IM VERY HEALTHY I CAN EASILY RUN 5 MILES JUST A BIT OF EXCERCISE BACKGROUND ..............

I THOUGHT I WAS HAPPY WITH MY SELF ?IHAVE MADE A 180 WITH MY MEDS I FEEL JOY AND LOVE IN MY LIFE BUT I DO NOT EXCEPT WHAT I LOOK LIKE OR WHO I AM .

CONFUSING I KNOW DOES THIS MAKE SENCE I DUNNO IT`S KILLING ME THOUGH

LOVE TO YOU LOVELY CARING FRIENDS