darling0

I just got into a huge fucking fight with someone over... over I don't even know. I don't know what the fuck just happened. He tells me he is staying away from me "for my own good" and doesn't understand why I treat him like an asshole for it. Homeboy broke up with me via the 'failure to answer or return phone calls' method.. randomly starts talking to me again a couple months later, but then proceeds to recall all the ways I fucked it up with him and generally making me feel like shit. And he wonders why I get snarky with him? And then somewhere in the midst of our fight, he confesses that he DOES like me, but would prefer to never speak to me again. Considering HE was the one to re-initiate contact, I don't fucking understand!! He likes me, but doesn't want to hang out with me "for my own good". I annoy him when we talk online, and yet he keeps messaging me. I asked him what the hell he wanted from me and he got offline. Oh yea, this entire debacle was over fucking AIM. So now here I sit at 3 in the morning, crying over some boy I haven't even seen in months.. and I don't know WHY.

My immediate reaction is simply to delete him from my buddy list and all social networking sites. If he doesn't want to speak to me, first of all, a good start would be to NOT message me randomly online... so I'm making it easy for him.

I think what upsets me the most is that I've met someone new, someone very promising.. and I know I'm fucking it all up again just the way I did with this guy. I really, really hope he hasn't noticed yet.