darling0

"Do you like to gamble? On anything? Because I don't and I never understood why anybody ever did it until today. . I like you. There. I said it. I like you and that kiss meant more to me than just happy holidays. And everything I said the other day was a lie. Well, not a lie because I think I meant it at the time, but I was basically just trying to fool myself because I didn't want to screw up our friendship. And I was gonna let that fear stop me.. but I don't want to and I'm not going to because I don't want to learn that lesson at 17 or at any other time for that matter. And you can tell me that you're too old and you can tell me that I'm too young.. but nothing that you say is gonna change the fact that I said it and I'm really glad that I said it because you're worth risking everything for."

You don't know how many times I've waited to hear something just like that. But it never comes. I'm always the one making the grand gestures, ya know? I'm always the one with the heartwrenching monologue. It's the pisces in me, I suppose, we can't help ourselves.. but I'm sick of being the one putting myself out there and getting shot down every time. It's time somebody else made the gesture. I'll be waiting.

(Some people watch porn.. I watch Dawson's Creek.
If you hadn't figured it out yet, my humble readers, I am all kinds of ridiculous. )