darkwest

ever since I can remember I never once had a full on relationship with any girl I ask myself what the fuck is wrong with me am I always going be alone... will I ever find my dream girl... is see even out there... from time to time I try but no girl or women ever gave me a chance or even a shot all they always want to stay as friends but don't want to be with me, it make me sad that I try and get shoot down I look at these women today and feel like I from a different time or something they are all beauty I finally see the beauty that people only see with they fell in love or starting to fall in love, all I know is trying is hard and hard to swallow the pain and the love I will never experience maybe it destiny that I stay alone, all I know is that I fell empty and lonely with that special someone I can see me turning into the hated side i think soon I will forget the love and be hateful towards women I don't know in my life women used me, pick on me, hated me, and don't love me in both ways as a jerk or as a friend I'm even surprise that I didn't turn gay from the abuse and hatred from girls or women because I know from the bottom of my heart my dream girl is out there and I keep my journey forward