Going to the Dr. in the morning. I've been putting off the dreaded "40 year checkup" for 6 months. Went in two weeks ago for Pneumonia/bronchitis/laryngitis and the doc scheduled two appointments, one for tomorrow (labs) and one for next Friday (readings, checkup). I know I shouldn't worry, and for the most part, I'm not. There is a little twinge though.
I broke things off with my gf on the first of January, and have moved on. Not into a new relationship, but into taking care of me, getting my life back. I don't want to be with her because of how things were. The bad far outweighed the good, and the only thing of interest to her near the end was money/what I could do for her. There was no reciprocation. I'm happy and good now, but I have been dreaming about her as of late. They are those beginning of the relationship sweet dreams we have when things are new. This is confusing me, and I have been tempted to make contact. I don't know if my heart (loves too easily) is trying to outweigh my brain. I really have no regrets by splitting up with her, so why now, three months later am I having these dreams/feelings? I think it's because of my fear that I'll never find love. Or maybe I just need somebody...
On to better things, I've got my new aquarium! It's a 60 gallon tank, so it's a really nice size. When I originally bought it, my plan was to place it on a big oak table I have. Well, that wasn't a good idea, because the tank with all of the decor, water, rocks, and fish could weigh upwards of 700lbs! 700!!! So, I had to go back out and buy an aquarium cabinet. It damn near weighs 100lbs itself! I didn't get any fish yet, because I want the water in it to set up (losing the chemicals that the water dept puts into it) for two weeks, and then I'm getting live plants first, and then after a couple of days, the fish. I decided to go with fresh water because of ease of maintenance and cost, and availability of plants and fish. Bala sharks are the fish of choice, mainly because I like how they look and they are very clean fish. They swim in schools, so I'll probably pick up 7 or 9. I'm going to get other fish, but these are the only ones I'm decided on so far. When it's done I'll post pics!
I broke things off with my gf on the first of January, and have moved on. Not into a new relationship, but into taking care of me, getting my life back. I don't want to be with her because of how things were. The bad far outweighed the good, and the only thing of interest to her near the end was money/what I could do for her. There was no reciprocation. I'm happy and good now, but I have been dreaming about her as of late. They are those beginning of the relationship sweet dreams we have when things are new. This is confusing me, and I have been tempted to make contact. I don't know if my heart (loves too easily) is trying to outweigh my brain. I really have no regrets by splitting up with her, so why now, three months later am I having these dreams/feelings? I think it's because of my fear that I'll never find love. Or maybe I just need somebody...
On to better things, I've got my new aquarium! It's a 60 gallon tank, so it's a really nice size. When I originally bought it, my plan was to place it on a big oak table I have. Well, that wasn't a good idea, because the tank with all of the decor, water, rocks, and fish could weigh upwards of 700lbs! 700!!! So, I had to go back out and buy an aquarium cabinet. It damn near weighs 100lbs itself! I didn't get any fish yet, because I want the water in it to set up (losing the chemicals that the water dept puts into it) for two weeks, and then I'm getting live plants first, and then after a couple of days, the fish. I decided to go with fresh water because of ease of maintenance and cost, and availability of plants and fish. Bala sharks are the fish of choice, mainly because I like how they look and they are very clean fish. They swim in schools, so I'll probably pick up 7 or 9. I'm going to get other fish, but these are the only ones I'm decided on so far. When it's done I'll post pics!
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merlowe:
So what did the doc say..are we on for physical excercise?! "wink" And did you buy any fish yet? We used to have two huge fresh water tanks in our shop ..so relaxing to watch! Don't forget to post pics luv! xo
casper:
Have you had your prostate checked? Seriously. I know men that avoid it.