asked a coworker to message my ex to ask if we can be anything because since the time my mom had her minor stroke ive started thinking about her more and after i heard my dad needed heart surgery ive been super depressed. coworker gets to tell her all this then gets to tell her i loved her. if she still wont speak to me idk what im ganna do. its hard enough to even have a good day now. thanks to the damn holiday im hating myself more to the point i break down, right now i just want to slam my head into a wall so i can forget how alone im becoming. hell ill be surprised if im not dead in a year
caraphernelia:
Aww I know what you are going through :/ but you don't need your ex to be happy. Spend the holidays with your family and friends. Sending love and health your way
darkkobra:
friends and family r nice but its not the same as someone who keeps the darkness out, someone who takes away all the pain life brings when life drags u down to hell. someone to have a future with once family begins to pass. without that i cant find away to be happy anymore, i used to have fun but now that i know what it feels like to have someone want u nothing else brings joy. ill probably end up buying a revolver just to play russian roulette every morning