yup, the only girl i thought was real, was...is just like all the other fucks i liked or had feelings toward. im done being used, done trying, done hoping, and soon done with this hell. bitch said shes been hurt and lied to before, and thinks that that is what pain is. LOL...no, not even close. i wish i could have a life...could of had, like that. if she knew what ive been through, shed think she lived in paradise. real pain isnt getting hurt or lied to, sure it might hurt, but real pain is having nothing. no hope, no joy, no happiness, no reason to look forward to waking up the next day. real pain is living a false life powerless to do anything about it, because when u try to find something to hold on to, darkness takes it's grasp around u, pulling u deeper into a nightmare without any light in sight. the way i see it, my life was taken when i was in a car accident at the age of 8. so pretty much ive been dead for 20 years ^_^
and the bitch that hit me, got away with it :D
ill be glad to say goodbye to all the fucks that have hurt, lied, or used me. to bad i wont get to finish all the shows im waiting for ~_~ my buddy thinks i need to use this and get stronger lol, but he doesnt understand what its like to always be alone since hes usually hooking up with some new fuck each week
forgot to add: no dreams and no goals