darkfey

Ok, a little more sober now...I told her "no"
I didn't think I'd be able to but I did it.
I don't think she was trying to use me...we talked, when we were going out we were both drinking alot and she was an alcoholic on relaps and I was an alcoholic yet to try stopping. so, things ended they way they had to, not the way I wanted or she wanted or anyone wanted...I know it's not me and I know it's not her...but it still really fucking blows! I love her, I don't know if its because we complemented each other so well or if it was just that she accepted me...I have no clue, I was her distraction, ment to steal her eye from the game for a moment, I served my purpose. I guess it's good to know that at some level Sarah still thinks of me, but I know I think about her more than she does me...her poping back into y life really fucked with me yesterday...and it still is to an extent...I need to get stoned.