darkfey

Just because someone was born, does it really mean they should have been...I've been asking myself this a lot recently and have come to the conclusion that no, I shouldn't have. My entire life has been one disappointment after another and I honestly don't see it improving. If you want a complete break down believe me, I can start at 3rd grade (yes that early) and just keep going. I've embarrassed my parents, shamed my brother, and lost all my friends. Granted I only had one good summer when friends were abundant and girls seemed to like me, and now I kind of wish that summer never happened. They say "It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all" well I say "Ignorance is bliss" and all my bliss is gone. Left only with my self hate and disgust I'm left honestly wondering if it really is worth going on since I don't believe it was ever worth starting.