Party Girl
Shes a frat boy fuck-toy.
Duel kegger and she yours -
All night long.
Tip-cup queen and tequila body-shot fiend.
Shell twist you up and tie you down.
Ditzy in the way that youd -
Believe her say,
I tripped and fell, landed on his um, well
She giggles in an innocent pitch
But the only non-4 letter word you hear is
Bitch!...
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Shes a frat boy fuck-toy.
Duel kegger and she yours -
All night long.
Tip-cup queen and tequila body-shot fiend.
Shell twist you up and tie you down.
Ditzy in the way that youd -
Believe her say,
I tripped and fell, landed on his um, well
She giggles in an innocent pitch
But the only non-4 letter word you hear is
Bitch!...
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Alas, its been a while since Ive reported in (thank you Three, for your concern has been the beacon for my return). I'm working at the Lo Ho still, I should be training for a server position soon, then I guess I start moving out or somethingIve given up on school, I hadnt felt a connected to the establishment for too long now and its...
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well i finally got back online, it'd been a lil while...i'm working again finally, Longhorn Steakhouse...hosting right now but it's cool. Way better than Red Lobster...finally got steady money comin' in again and hopefully soon I'll actually have enough to throw around 
Other than that life's been rather boring...only places i go is work and home, hopefully that'll change soon too
Other than that life's been rather boring...only places i go is work and home, hopefully that'll change soon too
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threestares:
i gotta tell you,i notice you don't talk too much......
trills:
Fish to steak 
I Long
I long to be violent,
And quicken the pulse of time;
To see the world shimmer in my fist.
I long to have power,
And whip the world to do my bidding;
To shove adrenaline into times heart.
I long to enjoy passion,
And chase the suns rise around the world;
To be at times standstill forever.
I long with need of the...
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I long to be violent,
And quicken the pulse of time;
To see the world shimmer in my fist.
I long to have power,
And whip the world to do my bidding;
To shove adrenaline into times heart.
I long to enjoy passion,
And chase the suns rise around the world;
To be at times standstill forever.
I long with need of the...
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threestares:
you have been very quiet.....
another night alone...am I really that much of a loser am I?
Dream
Fleeting glances at a party.
Brushing butts on the packed balcony.
Informal, intoxicated smiles traded.
I saw her once and my whole life changed.
For a moment I was indestructible.
Goals were achievable.
Values unbending.
2.5 kids were in the front yard playing.
Life, for a moment, was excellent.
But, in a...
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Dream
Fleeting glances at a party.
Brushing butts on the packed balcony.
Informal, intoxicated smiles traded.
I saw her once and my whole life changed.
For a moment I was indestructible.
Goals were achievable.
Values unbending.
2.5 kids were in the front yard playing.
Life, for a moment, was excellent.
But, in a...
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threestares:
would you?
i cannot tell you are talking to me when you reply in your own journal, until much later.
i cannot tell you are talking to me when you reply in your own journal, until much later.
threestares:
you make me smile, too.
Ok. Well I no longer work for Dial America...I gave it 4 days...but that job was so not my style.
Fuck these people!
Blah...God I need 420 bad
no job...no money...no pot...hmmm....
Fuck...I can't even think to type...
i need sleep, laid, stoned, anything
that'll make me feel something
Im tired of the numbness of being
the walk too long till the divergence
till the...
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Fuck these people!
Blah...God I need 420 bad
no job...no money...no pot...hmmm....
Fuck...I can't even think to type...
i need sleep, laid, stoned, anything
that'll make me feel something
Im tired of the numbness of being
the walk too long till the divergence
till the...
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trills:
No job. Little money. No place to call my own.
Same boat, eh?
Same boat, eh?
darkfey:
indeed our sails match, sadly we have an ocean between us but one will always have a star to guide the way 
happy birthday to me 
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threestares:
i asked you a movie question and you did not answer!
threestares:
i just read back over your journal. it would be good if you answered in my journal...... 'cause i did not know you wrote answers in your journal!
i think that the truman show was very big brother, hollywood does 1984
i think that the truman show was very big brother, hollywood does 1984
well, 2 days till my birthday...the past 97 days have been quite the unusual experience and every day I'm left wondering what the fuck I'm doing here. It's hard to feel complete when I'm alone and I'm wondering if I'll ever feel whole again. Who knows, I sure as hell don't...do you?
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threestares:
you are cryptic. what has been going on for 97 days?
darkfey:
well, on new years eve I got my second DUI and since then i've not drank any alcohol...I've also been recovering from the accident and general torture of the self-loathing sort
...My birthday was my mile marker...99 days without a drink.
...My birthday was my mile marker...99 days without a drink. Chemical Candy
I wish I
Had somewhere to go,
A bowl to pack,
A line to blow.
A feeling to feel
Or just a thought,
Something to think about,
I know I forgot.
My want, to want,
- A need to need-
Someone is growling
The beast needs to feed.
My mind is incased
In a ground glass-shard maze.
Twisting and cutting,
Getting lost here...
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I wish I
Had somewhere to go,
A bowl to pack,
A line to blow.
A feeling to feel
Or just a thought,
Something to think about,
I know I forgot.
My want, to want,
- A need to need-
Someone is growling
The beast needs to feed.
My mind is incased
In a ground glass-shard maze.
Twisting and cutting,
Getting lost here...
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xxdistortmexx:
Your writing truly amazes me.
Can we get married?
Later<3
Chels
Can we get married?
Later<3
Chels
darkfey:
the main point...well you could go into the "big brother" aspect...about how we are all watched by everyone else...Or how people scrutenize peoples lives like they're mear objects. I donno, what do you think?
Ok, a little more sober now...I told her "no"
I didn't think I'd be able to but I did it.
I don't think she was trying to use me...we talked, when we were going out we were both drinking alot and she was an alcoholic on relaps and I was an alcoholic yet to try stopping. so, things ended they way they had to, not...
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I didn't think I'd be able to but I did it.
I don't think she was trying to use me...we talked, when we were going out we were both drinking alot and she was an alcoholic on relaps and I was an alcoholic yet to try stopping. so, things ended they way they had to, not...
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threestares:
wow, how are you today?
darkfey:
today...today I'm better, I don't know where to go so much...I was told once "you make a great distraction" I suppose now I wait for the next girl in need of distraction, some shinny thing to use and discard...who knows, maybe the next will let me stay a while longer.
Ok i'm fucked up but gotta get this out of my head.........shit, what hasn't happened today? My cat hasn't been raped, but that's about it...fuck I hate this headspace.
So Sarah called today...she needed money...rent...I haven't talked to her in well over 6 months, I still have feelings for her, or maybe just i don't know...I want to give it to her...but I want to...
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So Sarah called today...she needed money...rent...I haven't talked to her in well over 6 months, I still have feelings for her, or maybe just i don't know...I want to give it to her...but I want to...
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ash:
aww, that sucks babes. Sounds like the girl is just using u for money. But hell, I dont even know the whole situation so I should just hush up
darkfey:
Thanks babe...everyone I asked said the same thing...I would have given it to her on my own, thankfully my friends won't let me fuck up myself any more than I'm already doing.
Party Girl
Shes a frat boy fuck-toy.
Duel kegger and she yours -
All night long.
Tip-cup queen and tequila body-shot fiend.
Shell twist you up and tie you down.
Ditzy in the way that youd -
Believe her say,
I tripped and fell, landed on his umwell
She giggles in an innocent pitch
But the only non-4 letter word you hear is
Bitch!
Shes...
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Shes a frat boy fuck-toy.
Duel kegger and she yours -
All night long.
Tip-cup queen and tequila body-shot fiend.
Shell twist you up and tie you down.
Ditzy in the way that youd -
Believe her say,
I tripped and fell, landed on his umwell
She giggles in an innocent pitch
But the only non-4 letter word you hear is
Bitch!
Shes...
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That was fuckin' cool.