Yesterday was pretty bab, i cried all morning, i posted a picture of Tiger on the Front door, then printed out my journal entry of The tiger tribute, and gave one to my dad and when Paul came to pick me up for work i handed it to him because i knew i wouldn't be able to tell him , when i handed it to him i already started to cry , he comferted me and helped , then he took me to work , and i walked in with a sad face, one of the older ladies i work with asked me what was wrong and i told her our families cat passed away, she instantly cried , because she had cat's of her own and she cared for them dearly and her comfert helped as well, i tried to keep busy all day so as not to think about it, i was doing very good at that , i wasn't on the register that much and when i did go , mom came to see me, I told her instantly i don't want to talk about, so what does she do starts talking about it and then i broke down yet again, one of the head people at my work told me to go ahead and go out side , so i did and calmed myself down, then i told her i had to go back to work and we said our goodbyes, i went back to being busy and my Paul came and we hung out and faced til it was time for me to go home, on the way home i started crying again, but i was ok when i came home, and we were going to go see a movie me and the whole family, but we are doing that tonight , dad bought us dinner and i called phyllis and we talked and i almost made her cry, but we are going to be putting a collage together , so we are gather all our pictures and figuring out how to do it, it will be good a very nice tribute and him, i had on last spurt of crying before i went to bed because i went to the bathroom and i always expect him to be in there trying to drink water from the faucet. but since then i've been ok , i understand life has to take it's course , but i am still really bumed out about it, and it makes me not to have anymore pets ever again, time will pass and i will get through it, this has hit me very hard, i lost my best friend, the one i confided everything in, who will i pet , who will i tell my inner thoughts too, who will just lay there looking like i am freak when i speak to them and not say a word.
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