darkenedskyz

Curse you , you basturd. How did this happen, not that i am sadden by the out come, just suprised. who knew it would happen , to me as well. I didn't think i would be effected this bad, it's only for a little time, but still i feel that i am lost , and afarid. I didn't know how much i miss him and i had a fit last night, because i came to a very distinct notion, I am aboustly no doubt about it, head over hils , madly, passionatly, In LOVE with Paul R. L., For a moment i close my eyes and invision Paul, holding me, kissing, makeing love to me, and a feel good sensation overcomes my body, then i cry because i want to actually feel his touch, hear his voice and be with him the way i usally am, 13 more days is still a while away, i wonder how he feels, i wonder if at this moment he is thinking about me, if he gets turned on thinking about me and has to wack it. I LOVE You Paul, and i don;t know how i will survive without you, you are my air, and right now i am not breathing to good.