Today I buried the cat I saved only days ago....
I had just went outside mere hours before and petted the thing, telling him that I was going to take him to the animal shelter the next day...
I felt like shit when my sister came in and told me that the kitten was dead. Poor thing had to deal with too much shit in his short life. It's terrible to think that he had to die all alone.
As I buried him, I noticed just how many little crosses we had out back, behind the house. All of them unfortunate animals who died by various accidents... Made me sad.
This weekend was true to form, being as terrible and depressing as usual.
Saturday I called Misty (the nurse), we had a pretty cool conversation, but she had to go early because she was going to go with some friends to Busch Gardens HallowScream. So I spent the night wandering my house, bored as all Hell.
Sunday was no better. She called me again, and I was excited because I figured that we could hang out like she said she wanted to the day before... But, no dice... She said her friends were taking her out to eat and she got off of the phone pretty quickly. I just started to feel like maybe she really didn't want to talk to me....
So, the rest of the day I just stared at the ceiling wishing that I had an escape.......
I am trying not to be too sad and act like I have something to care about, but I am having more and more of a hard time...
Josh 
I had just went outside mere hours before and petted the thing, telling him that I was going to take him to the animal shelter the next day...
I felt like shit when my sister came in and told me that the kitten was dead. Poor thing had to deal with too much shit in his short life. It's terrible to think that he had to die all alone.
As I buried him, I noticed just how many little crosses we had out back, behind the house. All of them unfortunate animals who died by various accidents... Made me sad.
This weekend was true to form, being as terrible and depressing as usual.
Saturday I called Misty (the nurse), we had a pretty cool conversation, but she had to go early because she was going to go with some friends to Busch Gardens HallowScream. So I spent the night wandering my house, bored as all Hell.
Sunday was no better. She called me again, and I was excited because I figured that we could hang out like she said she wanted to the day before... But, no dice... She said her friends were taking her out to eat and she got off of the phone pretty quickly. I just started to feel like maybe she really didn't want to talk to me....
So, the rest of the day I just stared at the ceiling wishing that I had an escape.......
I am trying not to be too sad and act like I have something to care about, but I am having more and more of a hard time...
Josh
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I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. It's like I've finally found myself and seen a glimpse of the future as dumb as that may sound.
Sorry about the girl, I hope things work out, you're a cool guy why wouldn't she want to hang out with you??
Hope you're having a better day
but you did give it more life than it would have had otherwise.
i wouldnt worry about the girl too much, but if in the future this becomes habitual for her then its a problem.
just that she has a life and you're something new to it so its hard to add.