I am surrounded by mirrors...
Reminding me that I will never be the same again....
Mocking me..
If ever I thought my life was fucked up before, I was wrong to say so...
Right now I am as close as I will ever get to truly wishing I was somebody else.
I wish I could flush away all of the rough times I have lived through. Because I think..... that I have entirely too many scars (physically and emotionally) for a 23 year old man.
Today was spent as the walking dead.
Every minute of my existance was plagued by intense pain and suffering. Right now, I fight the urge the throw up..
Typing away, just to ease my mind.
It hurts to smile, to laugh, to cry..... It hurts soo much. But, I am trying to stand tall. Be a man, like our fathers taught us.... But, it's harder this time.
Harder than ever before...
And I'm glad you are here with me, my invisible audience, to soothe my tormented soul.....
Thank you all....
Josh
Reminding me that I will never be the same again....
Mocking me..
If ever I thought my life was fucked up before, I was wrong to say so...
Right now I am as close as I will ever get to truly wishing I was somebody else.
I wish I could flush away all of the rough times I have lived through. Because I think..... that I have entirely too many scars (physically and emotionally) for a 23 year old man.
Today was spent as the walking dead.
Every minute of my existance was plagued by intense pain and suffering. Right now, I fight the urge the throw up..
Typing away, just to ease my mind.
It hurts to smile, to laugh, to cry..... It hurts soo much. But, I am trying to stand tall. Be a man, like our fathers taught us.... But, it's harder this time.
Harder than ever before...
And I'm glad you are here with me, my invisible audience, to soothe my tormented soul.....
Thank you all....
Josh VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
And I wont pretend I know exactly how you feel..
But I know what its like to wish you were someone else..
I know what its like to be locked up inside your head..
Ive spent my whole life going through shit, and Im sick of the scars too..
And I wont feed you the "it'll get better" bullshit
Cause Ive been telling myself that for 14 years...
But things will get easier..
You just have to get through all the shit..
Like Ive said before, if you ever need to talk Im around..
And Im serious, I have no life Im always on here when Im not working
Hopefully things get better...